She Bangz® [ The Truth ]

Bobbi Kristina

2012-02-13T18:55:00.000-08:00

Video of Bobbi Kristina singing..

RIP to my fellow LEO Whitney Houston

A Little Too Late?

2012-02-12T16:18:00.000-08:00

So most of you may not know the woes of me and this guy I call McCool. If you hit the McCool tab you'll see things I posted about him in the past but he's also the inspiration to this post.

Its almost crazy how a girl can like a guy sooooo much (and vise versa) and he says he feels the same but his actions don't show it. Then out of nowhere he wants to come back around and 'act right'.....only when its too late!

So I saw McCool Friday night when I was out with my friends. He happened to be at a bar pretty much next door to the bar where we were. We talked, blah blah blah....but he texted me that night basically saying he want us to try to be together and start dating, like on a more serious level than what we were....It took him a year and a month to come around!! Yess I kept count lol

After wanting this for like EVER...its like now I'm just not sure....maybe it was just long overdue...maybe its too late...

M.I.A: Bad Girls [Video]

2012-02-05T18:20:00.000-08:00

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Happy to hear new music from her! She's one of my favs! =)

Same Song.

2012-02-02T20:35:00.000-08:00

I try not to make the same mistake twice but because of a recent situation I've been thinking...

I think that most girls go back to guys that "did them wrong" or whatever the case may be because something in them is telling them that they may change or with hopes that the drama that tore them apart never really happened, with thoughts like, "maybe I over reacted."

It's easy to try to forget the wrong someone did when you're blinded by an emotional attachment. Personally I don't believe I've ever been emotionally attached to anyone but I have hopes that the guys i've dated would do better.

So now I'm in a situation where I wanna forgive a guy who was completely wrong. A situation that I thought I would never find myself in.

SheBangzTV: R.O.E Interview

2012-01-04T15:08:00.000-08:00

RisingOverEnvy.com

New Year! I survived!

2012-01-03T20:14:00.000-08:00

HAPPY NEW YEAR!!!

But anyways! I brought the new year in with a BANG.

I had another party at my cousin's house and it was cray cray

I always go blank when I drink alcohol and Red Bull. That gets SB into lots of trouble -__-

all in all I had a good time!

But EVERY NYE I cry for some reason. lol. Something always happen that makes me cry! lol

This year I cried because I felt like I hurt someone. I'm such a sweetheart.

Injuries:

Scrapped knuckles

Mud on my ankles

scratches on my arms

super sore shoulders

pain in my legs (couldn't walk the next day)

I learned a lot that night:

I learned never where Christian Louboutins if you plan to get super wasted!

Never invite a guy that you're attracted to if you plan to get super wasted!

Sit in one spot!

Don't wear a short dress if you plan to get super wasted!

Don't play dirty dice!

The End.

Rihanna - You Da One & woah O_O

2011-12-23T20:33:00.000-08:00

Soooooo I love Rihanna, No I really do and I like this song and the video but woah! Soo many crotch shots and grabbing lol O_o

Don't Know Until You Know...

2011-12-19T22:01:00.000-08:00

Hmm.

You know how you think you care about a guy until its 'tested'. Like you think you like him until he effs up and you really dont care?

Maybe it's just me but you dont really know you care until you're in a situation where you actually have to care.

If that makes any sense -_-

Pretty.

2011-12-17T16:48:00.001-08:00

First I'll start by saying this: Ladies don't be with a guy who never show interest in your interests.

This is personal lol. For a guy to tell you he cares about you but never ask simple questions like:

"How's school going?"

is not cool.

I was with a guy and he never showed any interest in anything that I do. Like he don't even know what I go to school for. He has no idea what I plan on doing with my life and he never really asked.

I mean taking me out on dates, buying me gifts is nice and all but what about showing that you care about me, as a person. I swear when I heard Nicole Scherzinger's song Pretty, I was like omg that's my life lol. It's like he never got to know me. Now I don't know if I should tell him how I feel or just leave the situation?

Rapping Baby!

2011-12-15T18:24:00.000-08:00

I swear I love this baby lol

NBA Memories: Derrick Rose Alley Oop

2011-12-11T20:57:00.000-08:00

Love Stinks

2011-12-06T18:48:00.000-08:00

You love her, she loves him and he love's somebody else

NBA Memories: Blake Griffin

2011-11-29T21:16:00.000-08:00

Pierre Hardy

2011-11-19T18:57:00.000-08:00

PIERRE HARDY

platform sandal

$1280

R.I.P Heavy D

2011-11-08T21:19:00.000-08:00

etnies European BMX

2011-11-03T17:28:00.000-07:00

i LOVE BMX i'm actually ordering a bike. Rare.
&& I have a crush on Tommy Dugan and Nathan Williams :)

Jeffrey Campbell: Audrey Platform Wedge

2011-11-02T20:10:00.000-07:00

I LOVE these. They retail for about $140

SB

2011-11-01T23:07:00.001-07:00

SB by shebangz featuring gothic jewelry

Madewell kitten heels
$270 - madewell.com

Repossi diamond ring
$9,680 - barneys.com

Gothic jewelry
$16 - amazon.com

Silver bangle
$16 - windsorstore.com

JANSPORT Fifth Ave Fanny Pack
$15 - tillys.com

Never Fall in Love

2011-10-23T12:33:00.000-07:00

To be continued..

Its OVER via Text

2011-10-13T21:42:00.000-07:00

Its tough when you actually like a complete jerk. Guys that say they love you, say they want to be with you but their actions show otherwise.

I would be with a guy like that and I actually broke up with him via text. Yeah I was a little tipsy, so what, I meant what I said.

but

he didnt read the text until the next night! He called me and everything! After our phone convo he texted like "oh, you're mad at me" like uh no shit dude!

Its easy to say that you're done with someone but its hard to actually let them go. But there has been very little progress. He continues to say that he'll do better but still no progress.

Holding on only makes the situation worse. It leaves the girl with empty hopes and it forces the guy to be in a situation he's clearly unsure about. I'm so not with the whole Beyonce, "let me upgrade you" thing. Either you got it or you dont. So farewell McCool -___-.

I forgot about you last night
for the first time in a long time I did
I was caught up in these drinks they keep on making
an amazin conversation with this girl named Lorraine
who says shes from L.A.
who keeps makin me laugh and even asks if she can pay
ooohhhh
She could be good for me (yeaaah)
This what you text me
Tell me that you miss me
I forget about Lorraine
and in fact shes right here with me
and shes starin at my face
something had to change
thought that all these feelings went away (yeahh)
I hate gettin messages from you (from you)
Its like you know the perfect shit to say
f-cks up my whole day
thought that all these feelings went away
I hate gettin messages from you (from you)
especially when you say you should’ve stayed
f-cks up my whole day
I thought that all these feelings went away
I hate the shit you do
I hate the shit you do
I hate the shit you do
I hate the shit you do
I hate the shit you do
I hate the shit you do
but I still text you back
I miss you too

Rihanna for Armani (Video)

2011-10-06T21:53:00.000-07:00

Facebook is ugly.

2011-09-21T19:47:00.000-07:00

Ok, I officially hate Facebook and I was once one of those people who had to check their Facebook like every 10 minutes but now with all the changes, especially since the recent change.

Its like less is more so why must they continue to add more to the site. It's sooo cluttered now.

DEACTIVATE.

Chicago FNO

2011-09-16T11:00:00.000-07:00

Didn't take many pics...opps

Free Cupcakes

Kelly Osbourne

oMg

2011-09-11T18:58:00.000-07:00

Sooooooo there's the guy, let's call him M. I've been looking for him since March so that makes me a stalker.

1st: saw him on my friend's birthday at a bar didnt say anything to him but he was so freaking cute. By the time I had a drink and grew some cojones to say something he was gone!

2nd: My friend's and I were walking to a bar he came outta nowhere and was like "you're beautiful" I was so shocked to turn and see it was him. But again we got separated and never saw him again!

3rd: Last night I dancing with my Serbian boyfriend and I turn and M is standing like right behind me. (heart drops, faints! lol) We talked and I couldnt get his number because of the effing Serbian guy I was with!! But my friend got his friends number and I'm all good I HOPE. lol

N ight W alk

2011-09-07T14:51:00.001-07:00

JEFFREY!! I still want this Jeffrey Campbell shoes. They retail for about $170. Maybe after I pay my school I'll treat myself ;)

Vincent

2011-08-29T21:55:00.000-07:00

Fall Girl

2011-08-23T21:23:00.001-07:00

Fall Girl by shebangz featuring leather leggings

Givenchy military style jacket
$2,160 - barneys.com

DKNY leather legging
$125 - net-a-porter.com

Azzedine Alaia platform high heels
$1,282 - boutique1.com

Alexander McQueen cross body handbag
$1,795 - couture.zappos.com

Urban Outfitters vintage earrings
$14 - urbanoutfitters.com

Happy Birthday to Me!

2011-08-08T23:15:00.000-07:00

Randomness of these 2 nights

So me and my 2 friends went to Soundbar to celebrate. It really wasnt the crowd we expected but of course I still enjoyed myself because I'm happy :)

So some strong white guy who clearly goes to the gym daily picks me up into the air, does the Matrix, purposes to me then tries to makeout with me. [Random]

So we leave early and go to Finns (a bar) on Division. Oh but before that this guy who I call McCool (not his real name) texted me asked me to come there because thats where we always meet up. Then he sent a text like "Make out???" haha.

So we went there, he almost got into a bar fight and then he hated me for like 10 whole minutes because I saw somebody I met before (this MMA fighter) and we were talking and exchanged numbers.

He forgave me and wouldnt let me go for the rest of the night and gave me forehead kisses <3

So he texted me later that night like: "I wanna be with you"

which is weird he's like this all American white guy and I'm like party girl She Bangz -_-

but I like him.

NEXT NIGHT

We went to The Mid and nothing but guidos there! Like they live in Chicago? lol

I loved it though but one of my friends was super uncomfortable, we were like the only black chicks there o_o.

So some guy just gave us a free bottle of champagne and shots. So much fun! We ended up in VIP, did some fist pumping (random)

Their tab was $2300 at the end of the night!

McCool was texting me all night.

Oh I met this Indian guy. He's so cool.

McCool texted me later that night "I'm falling for you"

HAVENT HEARD FROM HIM SINCE! WTF.

Thoughts for everyday...

2011-08-01T12:44:00.000-07:00

"Everyday, think as you wake up, ‘today I am fortunate to have woken up, I am alive, I have a precious human life, I am not going to waste it. I am going to use all my energies to develop myself, to expand my heart out to others, to achieve enlightenment for the benefit of all beings, I am going to have kind thoughts towards others, I am not going to get angry or think badly about others, I am going to benefit others as much as I can."

Amy

2011-07-24T21:37:00.000-07:00

So I Went Planking.

2011-06-30T22:22:00.000-07:00

Lakeshore Drive Plank

Church Plank

Highway Plank

Shopping Cart Plank

CVS Pharmacy Plank

Museum Plank

Picnic Table Plank

Rock Plank

Rachel Roy: Sneaker

2011-06-12T20:32:00.000-07:00

Rachel Roy sneaker in light blue grey

Dreams

2011-05-29T22:39:00.000-07:00

J. Cole: Dreams

Seems like I always had crushes on guys I couldn't have
And then I end up fucking with someone I shouldn't have
See, in my mind, it's like I'm perfect for him, I gotta show him
But sadly, in reality, dog, I don't even know him
But still somehow he got my mind infatuated
Absolutely fascinated with the thoughts of what he might be like
Time after time after time I had to wait,
Is fate procrastinating?

Sneakers: Rachel Roy

2011-05-23T15:54:00.000-07:00

Adinah shoe by Rachel Roy
These sneakers by Rachel Roy bang! She actually collaborated with Karina Petroni on this shoe.

Retail: $99

Rain---

2011-05-17T20:30:00.000-07:00

RAIN boots

YSL

Michael Kors

Juicy

Hunter

Burberry

Glam.

2011-05-11T14:42:00.001-07:00

Glam. by shebangz featuring magnetic bracelets

Couture evening dress, 465 GBP
Christian Louboutin high heels, $795
Christian Louboutin satin clutch, 520 GBP
Kenneth Jay Lane magnetic bracelet, $510
FLIRT! BIG FLIRT Thickening Mascara, $12
The Fashion File, $27

Transformers 3 Dark of the Moon Trailer !

2011-04-29T12:01:00.000-07:00

Transformers 3 Dark Of The Moon Theatrical Trailer from Michael Bay Dot Com on Vimeo.

I'm actually excited because I had the chance to witness some of the filming! Can't wait to see it!

Rose.

2011-04-05T17:17:00.000-07:00

"Summer romances begin for all kinds of reasons, but when all is said and done, they have one thing in common. They're shooting stars, a spectacular moment of light in the heavens, fleeting glimpse of eternity, and in a flash they're gone." - The Notebook

DSQUARED2

2011-04-01T13:14:00.000-07:00

Tumblr

My March

2011-03-30T14:51:00.000-07:00

Dipset Concert ^^ :)

Happy BDay RACQUEL! woo

Bum in the mall

Highlights!

I saw J :)
I kissed a white guy for the 1st time.
Well I actually kissed 3 guys in 2 days -_- lmao
A drunk white guy called me a 'bad bitch'
I danced with some hot guys from Spain. Felt like I was on dancing with the stars.
I touched Juelz Santana's hand for the 2nd time in my life. aha.
I fell in like.
I fell out of like.
I received and overdue apology.

Thrush.

2011-03-29T18:53:00.000-07:00

Thrush from Gabriel Bisset-Smith on Vimeo.

Watch and you will love it. lol

Creative.

Chang Takes Time.

2011-03-19T22:14:00.000-07:00

She Bangz' Steps to Making a Change....

Change your surroundings
Change your routine.
Change your friends if needed. Maybe this should be #1.
Do something that you usually don't do. Nothing crazy or illegal though.
Be persistent.
Ohh change your diet... good one.
Change your language. Not literally. Basically use better vocab.
Be limitless. Dint set limits.
Change the way you dress! That's always a good one.
Change you hair or makeup. I will make you feel like a new person!

ok I'm just ranting but this can be helpful remember positive change receives positive results. Happiness lies within.

Just a Thought.

2011-02-27T20:23:00.001-08:00

When you wake up in the morning you never know what the day may hold. Not everything is under your control no matter how much you want it to be. Just be fully effective in making positive, unregrettable decisions and live for yourself. I don't understand the living in fear thing. You have to do exactly what you want to do, no looking back. Take control, fulfill your destinies, live your dreams.

Guy.

2011-02-21T23:29:00.000-08:00

Just things I'm wondering about this new guy....

Did he google me? I did give him my "full name"?
I wonder if he hates my new hair extensions......hmmmm
I think he has a girlfriend... -_- i got a feeling
Is he a future boy or toy friend?
I think he's my BAD karma

IDK why I even care. this is rare.

11214

2011-02-16T16:37:00.000-08:00

yea we drink lots of water lol

Breaking Up? Breaking Away! Cleansing.

2011-02-12T19:44:00.000-08:00

Can i break up with guys i'm only "dating"? Maybe i should say breaking away? idk anyways...

Im pretty fed up with these current guys. Either I have lack of interest or lack of time and its keeping us divided. At times I feel as though I shouldn't date at all for a while but who am i fooling!!?? I can't do that, I'm boy crazy!!! lol

I just don't understand why these guys feel like you owe them something because they told you how much they like you 0_o. I dont get it.

Im bored...maybe.

And I always fall for the same type of guy -_- Its sooooo great in the beginning

but then crash and burns! Bcus I always end up liking a man whore yeaaa...

and the guys who are soooooo into themselves...always shopping and taking pictures... (no homo?)

"look i don't fall in love, these guys aint worth it

except___ but i fell in love with him on purpose

he lied he cheated never told him that it hurted but

he wanna photobooth like we picture perfect"

I LOVE THESE LYRICS!

You see I loved hard once, but the love wasn't returned

I found out the man I'd die for, he wasn't even concerned

And time it turned,

He tried to burn me like a perm

Though m

y eyes saw the deception, My

heart wouldn't let me learn

From um, some, dumb woman, was I,

And everytime he'd lie, he would cry and inside I'd die.

My heart must have died a thousand deaths

Compared myself to Toni Braxton thought

I'd never catch my breath

Nothing left, he stole the heart beating from my chest

I tried to call the cops, that type of thief you can't arrest

Pain suppressed, will lead to cardiac arrest

Diamonds deserve diamonds, but he

convinced me I was worth less

when my peoples would protest,

I told them mind their business, cause my shit was complex

More than just the sex

I was blessed, but couldn't feel it like when I was caressed

I'd spend nights clutching my breasts

overwhelmed by God's test

I was God's best contemplating death with a Gillette

But no man is ever worth the paradise MANIFEST

-Lauryn Hill

..and the reason i posted the quote and lyrics is because a lot of old feelings are resurfacing and its causing me to over think a lot of situations I've been in lately. It's mostly a reminder for myself that I have to completely let go of friendships and relationships that went wrong and start fresh. The only way to start fresh is to cleanse. Get rid of the bad to make room for the new so that's what I'll do. :)

I Love Reading Your Blogs! =)

2011-02-11T09:38:00.000-08:00

I love reading your blogs! I have a few blogs in my blog roll that I read every time they are updated. So check out some of the blogs in my blog roll and suggest a blog for me to read in my comments!

That's Really Raw

2011-02-03T13:49:00.000-08:00

Tyga (pharrell, snoop, game) -Really Raw

Cry Baby

2011-01-29T23:22:00.001-08:00

Trust in Me

2011-01-25T21:53:00.000-08:00

Trust in me

In all you do

Have the faith
I have in you

Love will see

Us through

If only you

Trust in me

Why don't you,you

Trust me?

Come to me
When things
Go wrong
Cling to me daddy
And oh yeah I'll be
Strong

We can get along

If only you

Trust in me

Love at First Sight?

2011-01-23T20:21:00.000-08:00

Wait, I forgot to mention I experienced love at first sight at the end of last year! lol

Well I really cant say it was love at first sight because I've known him for a while BUT there was deffy a "movie moment" lol

The "romantic glance" what a wonderful feeling! We're just friends though, nothing major but our feelings for each other are mutual and we have the same views on almost everything.

Some people are put in your life for reasons beyond your understanding. Your job is to find out their purpose. I believe I now understand why we were put into each other lives :)

He’s Lying!

2011-01-21T11:59:00.001-08:00

Well of course I’ve been thinking and of course I’ve been in a lets say, dramatic situation.

Last time I checked I was s i n g l e which gives me the full freedom to be honest with whomever I’m dating, right?

If we’re NOT in a relationship, why lie? I won’t pretend that you are the ONLY guy I'm dating because you’re not, so don't pretend I'm the only girl.

Why do guys lie to girls that they are not in a relationship with? I just don’t understand it.

Wait, do you see my heart on my sleeve?
It's been there for days on end and
It's been waiting for you to open up
yours too baby, come on now
I'm trying to tell you just how
I'd like to hear the words roll out of your mouth finally
Say that it's always been me
That's made you feel the way you've never felt before
And I'm all you need and that you never want more
Then you'd say all of the right things without a clue
But you'd save the best for last
Like I'm the one for you
You should know that you're just a temporary fix
This is not routine with you it don't mean that much to me
oh just a filler in the space that happened to be free
How dare you think you'd get away with trying to play me
Why is it everytime I think I've tried my hardest
It turns out it ain't enough
You're still not mentioning love
What am I supposed to do to make you want me properly?
I'm taking these chances and getting nowhere
And though I'm trying my hardest you go back to her
And I think that I know things may never change
I'm still hoping one day I might hear you say….

-Adele

SHOES: Gianmarco Lorenzi

2011-01-19T16:11:00.000-08:00

all retail for over $1000

Redundant.

2011-01-17T02:21:00.000-08:00

FAKE smile

Lately Ive noticed the lack of change in my life. Things are so redundant. I feel as though I have evolved in many ways but those around me continuously repeat the same bad habits as before and its causing me to walk the same footsteps that I've already covered.

I'm not one to blame others for my own mistakes but sometimes friends can have a major influence on your life.

I'm just in need of change. If you want something new you have to try something different. Must escape from the old patterns of life for new results.

Kanye West Jay-Z - H.A.M

2011-01-11T09:52:00.000-08:00

RARE

I usually dont post music...but I have to say I like this track. Especially JayZ's verse!

Kanye West && Jay-Z: H.A.M

"Got a few white girls asses flat as shit but the head so good a nigga glad he hit"

Kanye West

"Fuck yall mad at me for yall dont know what I been through"

Jay

I Live for Rare Moments.

2011-01-10T20:25:00.000-08:00

I live for rare moments. I love the excitement of them. Unpredictable moments, whats better than that? Well the good ones at least.

Wait did I tell you that the other night, this guy who I have had a "crush" on but had not formally met walked up to me and told me I was pretty ;) lol. RARE. but then something, lets just say dramatic happened and we didn't get to exchange numbers. YIKES. lol

I know who my REAL friends are and I am so thankful to have them. I feel more connected to those in my life than ever before and I appreciate all of our moments together. I could NEVER take them for granted because one day I may not be able to share these moments with them. Some people are put in your life for a reason. Good or bad.

And its time to lead a fearless life. Not like, get into hella dangerous situations (lol) but just being free of the fear of falling, failing, judgement, success and self.

I refuse to let others negativity or opinions derail me from my dreams and aspirations. This is my only life, as far as I know it, and I shall take full control. My destiny will be fulfilled.

and here's some entertainment for you. LOVE THIS VIDEO. So rare. lol ;)

Based Family.

2011-01-09T04:00:00.000-08:00

I just got into a car accident.

Cheers.

2011-01-01T23:56:00.000-08:00

You live and you learn.

Happy 2011 !!!

I plan on being the change I want to see no looking back. ;)

WinterTime (Pics)

2010-12-25T12:41:00.000-08:00

a few pics I took with my phone.
winter time :)

Be not afraid of growing slowly, be afraid only of standing still.

12232010

2010-12-23T17:55:00.000-08:00

If you are in a hurry you will never get there

Prison.

2010-12-17T21:35:00.000-08:00

I feel trapped. Maybe I am. I feel as though my freedom is gone, but I never had freedom to begin with.

Why would you want me to be dependent?

Why would you want me to need you or need someone else?

I hate when I plan out my whole day and everything seems to fall into place and then by the end of the night its ruined. I dont even look forward to happy endings. There's no such thing.

Until I make my great escape I'll be locked down by the restraints of simple madness and destructive imaginations.

#1 Wanna by me a holiday gift? ;)

2010-12-14T17:23:00.001-08:00

Well I surely take Pierrot Le Fou on DVD or BlueRay!

No worries I’ll post other things I want as well ;)

Pierrot le Fou Scene

2010-12-13T10:03:00.000-08:00

I really like this scene from Pierrot le Fou, and it shows Americans as being naive in a sense. lol

2nd Obsession.

2010-12-10T14:40:00.001-08:00

Am I the only girl who hates when I fall 'in like' with someone? Maybe not.

My second obsession is in for a world of trouble. If he only knew that he's constantly on my mind but I would never tell him, that would be a major ego boost.

You know how guys are, they claim to like you soooooooo much and blame you for the reasons that you are not together…that’s what he’s good at. Its true though because I can’t be with a man whore.

A reason that I may like him

The way he dresses. Yep he’s fly like me. haha (does this make me shallow?)

I just feel like I don't know enough about him. Who am I to complain about that though? I never open up.

Another reason

His social life (strange, right?) but we have lots of mutual friends and I live for entertaining ;)

Maybe my reasons are not good enough. Oh well. This is temporary and this too shall pass :)

The greatest thing you'll ever learn is just to love and be loved in return.
-- Moulin Rouge

Edward Hold Me

2010-12-08T10:28:00.003-08:00

25 Reason Why I Really Can't Date You

2010-11-23T20:09:00.000-08:00

Well I like Nieva's song 25 reasons, which is really talking about the 25 reasons that she's in love with some guy. Mines is the opposite. I can give you 25 Reasons why I'm really not feeling you.

25 Reasons Why I Really Can't Date You

#25 Is anything you're doing brand new?

You're nothing new. Everything that you do is so not new to me and the things that you want to do together are things you've done with females you've dated in the past. I like to be the only one, I like for new experiences that we can say we shared only together, even things as simple as taking a picture. Is that petty? You're cool but that's never enough.

Did I Tell You That I'm BASED

2010-11-06T19:58:00.000-07:00

ok so on Halloween I went to see Lil B yes Based God. He had a concert and it was the best day ever.

I was so Based.

I got on stage and did the cooking dance lol EXCITEMENT.

2010-10-26T22:18:00.000-07:00

Dress

2010-10-22T11:21:00.000-07:00

Mango Lace and Mesh Maxi Dress

about.. $170
asos.com

idk why but i really like this dress. I want it! but where would i go in it? lol

KillBill

2010-10-20T20:30:00.001-07:00

wrong.

2010-10-18T20:55:00.001-07:00

im wrong for liking him
im wrong for loving him

im wrong for hating her
im wrong for accepting to be second by someone im better than to someone im better than

my perception of love is screwed
my infatuation with love is a threat to me to him
fear sets in

fear of lonely

fear of flight

Lil B [ Ellen Degeneres ]

2010-10-16T23:02:00.000-07:00

So I can proudly say that I put hella people on to Lil B....

He is a gift ! BASED!

but i had to! Good Music Cypher

2010-10-15T10:23:00.000-07:00

I wasnt going to post this video but I go to it everyday...sooo this is like a shortcut :)

I want some new Vans

2010-10-13T20:06:00.000-07:00

So I have a recent obsession with Vans, this too shall pass.

Tweekage

2010-10-12T21:13:00.001-07:00

McQueen

2010-10-02T19:05:00.000-07:00

I want: Giuseppe Zanotti boots!

2010-09-24T13:21:00.001-07:00

I really want these...umm but they retail for over $1000 :/

Giuseppe Zanotti

Suede Chain Lace Boots

9/3 Dusk Ramblings

2010-09-03T09:10:00.000-07:00

The past never wins. What is remembered the best is the most frequent [True?] and those who continuously make the same mistakes fall into their past. The past is to be left behind us. Only distant memories, good and bad, the "in between memories" are forgotten. This moment will soon become my past. Was value gained or lost? I will learn in the future. When eyes are closed and memories begin to float are the mistakes made seen first? It cant be avoided.
Without mistakes there is no progression. Unless perfection is beheld. Perfection is possible. Being perfect is absolutely possible because perfection is in the eye of the beholder. Perfection is held by the one who knows truth. The truth of the heavens, the gods, the world in which we walk and the world under us. There is no wonder why the race can not survive in the world beneath us. It is forgotten that our possibilities are limited. Everything has been forgotten. Knowledge merely exists because of laziness of mind, body, soul.

Tyga

2010-08-27T14:15:00.000-07:00

..

2010-08-23T10:11:00.000-07:00

If you've ever kept a secret
From the one you love
This is what it feels like

If you thought that i was perfect
boy you were wrong
Im far from that
There's one thing that i've done to you
That i regret and
Look i know its no excuse but
Im only human and young at that
And im gonna make mistakes
And hope you understand

Didn't see it comin
Wasn't on purpose
Baby i promise
I didnt mean to hurt you
Will you forgive me
You didnt deserve this
I know it wasn't worth it

Im a tell him the truth
(when im ready to)
Tell him the truth
(some how)
Gotta tell him the truth
(Thats what i gotta do)
Tell him the truth
(but not now)
Gotta Tell him the truth
(just wait a little bit)
Tell him the truth
(he couldn't handle it)
Tell him the truth
(thats what i gotta do)
Tell him the truth
(but not now ooh)

Didn't see when i had tears rolling down my face
I turned my back
It was heavy on the tongue
And i kenew that you knew something was wrong
I was about to break open spill out everything
but something said
Keri wait, Things are going great, what you gonna say
i dont know maybe something like

Didn't see it comin
Wasnt on purpose
Baby i promise
I didnt mean to hurt you
Will you forgive me
You didnt deserve this
I know it wasn't worth it

Im a tell him the truth
(when im ready to)
Tell him the truth
(some how)
Gotta tell him the truth
(Thats what i gotta do)
Tell him the truth
(but not now)
Gotta Tell him the truth
(just wait a little bit)
Tell him the truth
(he couldn't handle it)
Tell him the truth
(thats what i gotta do)
Tell him the truth
(but not now ooh)

I feel less( than nothin)
Lower (than zero)
and tired (of frontin)
Gotta tell him the truth ooh
I feel less( than nothin)
Lower (than zero)
and tired (of frontin)
Gotta tell him the truth ooh

Guess i've been waitin for the stars to align
there's no perfect time
i gotta tell him the truth
Cause it's hard to build the truth on a lie
and if thats what i want
i gotta tell him the truth

Im a tell him the truth
(when im ready to)
Tell him the truth
(some how)
Gotta tell him the truth
(Thats what i gotta do)
Tell him the truth
(but not now)
Gotta Tell him the truth
(just wait a little bit)
Tell him the truth
(he couldn't handle it)
Tell him the truth
(thats what i gotta do)
Tell him the truth
(but not now ooh)

2 late...

2010-08-22T22:36:00.000-07:00

I've never felt this bad before. I can't. Stop thinking about it and it may seem small but its bugging me. How do I say sorry to someone who is no longer speaking to me. I met this guy a few weeks ago...he was cool like he hit me up often wanted to go out for icecream....I was supposed 2 go 2 his game..etc....he came to see me..we stood in front of my house and was talking....iidk about the vibe...it seemed like he was feeling his self...yea that's it..he was cool but I guess he felt as if he had 2 prove himself 2 me and he couldn't take a joke lol...he was still a good guy and I thought he was cool. Soooooo a few days later I saw him at a party....I gave a guy he was with my number and now I feel horrible! Lol petty right? I feel soooo bad bcus I know that he was like really into me and I snaked him. Now I talk to his friend everyday...kicked it and everything. I feel like I messed up big time. It was just rude as hell and I don't like to break bonds off something so petty bcus I will never be with either of them seriously but I just don't like being the type of person that could even do such a thing. I mean it may not seem like that big of a deal but situations like that are just fu*ked up..now I have to apologize.

Deeder Shoebox Money [video]

2010-08-20T13:14:00.000-07:00

Check out Deeder's video Shoebox Money.. make sure you watch it in HD

"Better late than never"

2 soon ;/

2010-08-20T12:14:00.001-07:00

am i the only one excited for the fall?

Chicago. VOV

2010-08-09T14:34:00.000-07:00

Chicago's View on Violence from Kenya Kimbark on Vimeo.

Video I did for school!

Did you know?

2010-08-06T10:54:00.000-07:00

Oscar Grant who was unarmed was shot and killed by the police in California's bay area last. I just learned this today. It was caught on camera!

Q.

2010-06-21T20:20:00.000-07:00

"Love is a temporary madness, it erupts like volcanoes and then subsides. And when it subsides, you have to make a decision. You have to work out whether your roots have so entwined together that it is inconceivable that you should ever part. Because this is what love is. Love is not breathlessness, it is not excitement, it is not the promulgation of promises of eternal passion, it is not the desire to mate every second minute of the day, it is not lying awake at night imagining that he is kissing every cranny of your body. No, don't blush, I am telling you some truths. That is just being "in love", which any fool can do. Love itself is what is left over when being in love has burned away, and this is both an art and a fortunate accident."

Louis de Bernières

We Own the Night

2010-06-13T20:58:00.000-07:00

So I started ANOTHER Youtube channel...just vloging talkin about random things...just putting up videos of ME or whatever!

here's one of my friend and I talkin about our night! :)

dating && blah

2010-05-28T17:34:00.000-07:00

so i decided to make a video about dating...just things i was thinking..

uuuhh bay

2010-04-28T20:18:00.000-07:00

well im going to risk my life and order from Ebay....idk why I fear ordering things from ebay. Maybe its because I have trust issues. Plus I'm supposed to be typing a paper on capital punishment but the Internet is a major distraction. I'm slackin'.

now i know

2010-04-25T18:34:00.000-07:00

Your all alone
I did this
I got no one else to blame
You didn't know
I was risk
And it's such a crying shame
And you gave me all of you and wanted nothing else from me
But to make sometime for you but all i made you was lonely

Chorus
I couldn't see
But now I know
That I acted selfishly
I should've known
That I let you down
Caused you so much misery
Forever to bleed
Forever to bleed
Forever to bleed
Forever to bleed

I should've been there
I should've been there
I should've been there
I should've been there

All of the times
You used to cry
Because i would let you down
I'm losin time
I should've tried
A little more to be around
But I didn't know that you were hurting, I was just too blind
Only thing I know for certain: another you I'd never find

Chorus
I couldn't see
But now I know
That I acted selfishly
I should've known
That I let you down
Caused you so much misery
Forever to bleed
Forever to bleed
Forever to bleed
Forever to bleed

I should've been there
I should've been there
I should've been there
I should've been there

I'm filled with regret
I'm gonna tip and sew myself in misery
Now in your lies
I'll take my time
No more yearning without me
But it hurts to think of you all by yourself but now I see
And I apologize for all the times I left you home waiting for me

Chorus
I couldn't see
But now I know
That I acted selfishly
I should've known
That I let you down
Caused you so much misery
Forever to bleed
Forever to bleed
Forever to bleed
Forever to bleed

I'm gonna be there (I'm gonna be there)
I'm gonna be there (I'm gonna be there)
I'm gonna be there (I'm gonna be there)
I'm gonna be there

I'm gonna be there (I'm gonna be there)
I'm gonna be there (I'm gonna be there)
I'm gonna be there (I'm gonna be there)
I'm gonna be there

Vimeo Find : Pigeon Pilfer

2010-04-09T14:46:00.000-07:00

by Michael Stevenson

Pigeon Pilfer from Michael Stevenson on Vimeo.

Days of Magic, Nights of War

2010-04-07T18:30:00.000-07:00

"I dreamed I spoke in another's language,
I dreamed I lived in another's skin,
I dreamed I was my own beloved,
I dreamed I was a tiger's kin.

I dreamed that Eden lived inside me,
And when I breathed a garden came,
I dreamed I knew all of Creation,
I dreamed I knew the Creator's name.

I dreamed--and this dream was the finest--
That all I dreamed was real and true,
And we would live in joy forever,
You in me, and me in you."

— Clive Barker

Bonnie and Jack 1

2010-04-07T18:07:00.000-07:00

Jack: how many boys did you kiss today?

Bonnie: 2

Jack: back to your old ways, huh?

Bonnie: No

Jack: Why the one word answers?

Bonnie: because

Jack: Because of what?

Bonnie: Love

ART

2010-03-31T20:27:00.000-07:00

Erykah Badu - Window Seat (Official Video) She Gets Butt Naked In The Video!

The Puddle

2010-03-19T13:19:00.000-07:00

I'm sure there is a song that will save

me from self destruction. when i find it I will let you know.

2010-03-10T11:42:00.000-08:00

i need some black leather boots....with buckles...or zippers.

Monologue.

2010-03-08T20:59:00.000-08:00

a monologue from Ivanov that i read and I really liked. Its soooo true to me, the things she says.

SASHA: There are a great many things a man cannot understand. Any girl would rather love an unfortunate man than a fortunate one, because every girl would like to do something by loving. A man has his work to do, and so for him love is kept in the background. To talk to his wife, to walk with her in the garden, to pass the time pleasantly with her, that is all that love means to a man. But for us, love means life. I love you; that means that I dream only of how I shall cure you of your sadness, how I shall go with you to the ends of the earth. If you are in heaven, I am in heaven; if you are in the pit, I am in the pit. For instance, it would be the greatest happiness for me to write all night for you, or to watch all night that no one should wake you. I remember that three years ago, at threshing time, you came to us all dusty and sun burnt and tired, and asked for a drink. When I brought you a glass of water you were already lying on the sofa and sleeping like a dead man. You slept there for half a day, and all that time I watched by the door that no one should disturb you. How happy I was! The more a girl can do, the greater her love will be; that is, I mean, the more she feels it.

Interesting Video

2010-03-05T18:17:00.000-08:00

say sumthin

She's Pretty..muy bonita

2010-03-03T20:01:00.000-08:00

Chanel Iman

rojo, adora y una cita. PEACE

2010-03-01T20:52:00.000-08:00

i really wasnt sure what kind of tights i could possibly wear with a red skirt that would

look nice. just plain black? to plain && bold lol..lace? yea! but tooooo uh..yea

so i settled for these kinda printed ones. turned out fine but seeing that i still didnt

wear this combo out yet but posted pics i may never actually wear it

lol

lol silly me =)

oh i live by quotes. so here's a few

"Whatever relationships you have attracted in your life at this moment, are precisely the ones you need in your life at this moment. There is a hidden meaning behind all events, and this hidden meaning is serving your own evolution.”

[this is one i can truly understand. and i always feel this way. people are put into ur life for a reason. use them wisely =) ]

“The less you open your heart to others, the more your heart suffers”

[ <3 ]

GRACIAS PARA LEER. COMENTARIO =)